Monday 17th Oct update from Jenny

Wednesday the 12th October.

In the early morning I really felt God say to me that he was the great physician and that I should choose life. I felt encourged by this word and asked the family to bring me clean water and salads to help me support life in my body. It was a difficult day, the doctors tolds me they had a limited opportunity for chemo and chest tests and i had to decide what i wanted to do. I felt a bit of pressure to go through more testing and chemo but there was no cure being offered and both could be very dangerous for my health. I didn't feel that these treatments could support the life I was looking for so after much thought i said no to all their treatments and tests. I spent a lot of time in prayer with Diana, Joy, Peta by phone and Carlie by phone and also with Lindsay in the afternoon so the decision became very easy as his peace came to me though the day.

Thursday the 13th of October

I woke up feeling happy grateful and loved. I felt very peaceful about my decision and I was looking forward to going home. When i went to my God space I found myself sitting on a beach with Jesus sitting close behind me. We were both at peace and rest, looking out to the sea which represented my future. I felt strongly that i don't need to reach here and there grasping at straws looking for a solution because i am safe in him and i am looking for and believing for much more than chemo can offer me anyway.

Sunday the 16th October

I had a prayertime with Abi, Lindsay and Carlie. As we prayed I felt this blackness and heaviness in my side. As I prayed God revealed to me that this was the diagnosis and the medical pronouncements that had been said over me that these had taken a hold of me and were shaping the way i was belileving. The blackness solidified into a bblack harpoon. I felt Jesus come cand put his arms around me from behind and pull me off the harpoon. He then turned me around and carried me to a mountain top where the sky was blue and the grass was green. After this prayertime I really felt that God had moved me to a different place.

Monday the 17th October

Eugene who is my naturopath came and visited me today and told me he did have homeopathic medicines that could play the support roles that the drugs were playing without the side effects. These homeopathics can also help to fight the cancer cells and tumors. I am excited about the prospect of taking these natural medicines that are much more life giving.

I also had a visit from my hospice nurse today who was very loving and supportive. I told hospice that I had come home to live and they support me in this decision.